Last night I found this really intersting book at the library. I always seem to enter the library with a bag full of books that are delayed for return keeping me always on the edge of debt and thinking today I shall not borrow any books because I´ll only forget to return them.. only to find myself looking like a hunchback with bags full of books as I leave. Shaking my head but singing in my heart.

Is there anything greater than a library? Sometimes in a different dimension I wish I was a librarian and I could snatch all the new books first and lock myself up in some small room and read and have crisps and just read and wake up in the middle of the night and the police are searching for me and…oh I digress.

Well this book then. It´s called “Encyclopedia of new religions”. 447 illustrated pages on religions that people are engaged in. All in the search for the light that will lead them to inner peace. Or so I assume. There is a big chapter on New Age which I dove right into.
New Age. What a fantastic concept in the realm of spacetime. Timelines. Time.
Old age, new age. Hm. Well anywhooooo. Religion is dear to my heart and also really undear. Religion messes people up in ways we cannot even conceive of. And it can also bring out the best in people. But then that best can also fuck things up.
I just also spotted a book called “Pathological alturism” (Barabara Oakley et al). Fantastic!
Now I know why I am so messed up 😉

Some research suggests that we have an innate skill to be honest and authentic as it takes less effort. We are more prone to being kind. And yet this kindness can be totally mistaken for help. A need to be helpful. Even when it´s really not a great choice. Some people call it curling, esp around kids. When people treat other people in ways that may come from an intention of kindness but really is not, it just makes the other person think they are stupid/less than/incapable and what not it actually leads to depression and even burn out syndrome. Who knew. Well obviously some who wrote this really long book that´s like £50 so I am probably not gonna get it bc I will never read the whole thing either way. But I found this really nice YouTube yesterday that I highly recommend.
Alturism isn´t bad. It´s just that we color everything with our subjective points of views and that is not always the best choice. But hey. We are all humans. Je t´aime.

Someone told me once I have a melancholic Karma of sorts. Isn´t that kinda funny?
Well today it´s raining cats and dogs outside. My electric bike is calling for me but my wellies are stashed away somewhere safe and my rainy days clothes too. Seems like a good day for studying today. Along with my long time friend Lloyd Cole. Oh that dude!
Brittish English at its best about love and lost love and lost pens and broken records and all that kind of stuff that melancholic people think about.

I remember the day we first met. Me and Lloyd Cole. Not irl. Not at that point, that came later. I saw his face on a cassette tape.  It was a choice between this unknown dude and some australian rockband with a well known radio top ten song. Luckily I picked Lloyd. My dude.  This must have been in the beginning of the 90s. The album is called “No blue skies” which of course brings us right back to this rainy day. Nothing like having morning coffee with hazelnut milk singing along to the theme song for the Album…

“you wanna leave me baby be my guest
all i’m gonna do is cry
and then i’m gonna find there’s someone else
and tear the stars out of the sky
looking for something when there’s nothing there to be found
make it easy on yourself
go out and find your body someone else
and tear the stars out of the sky“

Words. Oh words I love words. They can create and destroy and break hearts and build hearts. Oh I think I need another song along with my breakfast boring gluten free sandwich. I have a predilection for songs that makes me cry and this song just hits it every time. Nothing as delicate as a broken heart… For crying out loud.

“I took 15 years to break your spell
I loved you then, I love you still
I wake up cold, I wake up wet
My body weak, my mind is spent

I fill my days, I pay my rent
And I have no need of electric light
Because I dream the same dream every night
I call my man, I know it’s late
Could you fix me something
To put me straight?

‘Cause I need your love
I need it now
God speed your love
For crying out loud, hey yeah

You took all I have, there is no more
Mother nature lied, there is no cure
So I take my pill, I close my eyes
And I wait for sleep, I wait all night
But I see your face, I hear your voice
I call your number, I have no choice

‘Cause I need your love
I need it now
God speed your love
For crying out loud, hey yeah”

I realize lyrics without music is like a gluten free sandwish without ketchup. Weird.
So check out Spotify or whatever means you have. Youtube. Dare to be melancholic. Cry your heart out. Be dramatic. Be authentic. Be unauthentic.

I don´t know how Dr. Joe Dispenza would react to being called that but that is how I think of him.

Dr. Dispenza has written books in the field of self development and brain science for quite some time now. He also teaches classes around the world about how we can all go beyond the limiting beliefs that our minds holds and how this affects our bodies and lives.
He recently started including meditations in his classes as research has proven that if we go into a different state of brainwaves we are able to reprogram ourselves into change, something that is merely impossible to do in a state of Beta-waves, the state where the brain is only in the mind thinking and making conclusions.

Anyways I really wanted to share with you something that Dr. Joe so generously provides for those of us interested but not really able to travel and/or attend classes.
Every month he offers a LIVE TELECALL that focuses on a subject of interest. Some teleclasses are Q&A:s where you can send in your own questions.

The topic of neuroscience is so interesting.
Why is it so hard to change?
What can I do and how does the brain work?  How can I be more present in the moment?
How come habits are so hard to get rid of?
The brain is superawesome but it´s really of great importance that we use it in our own favour rather than to be run by the beliefs it has collected. Dr Joe has such a great energy and space and he totally sweeps me away with the new possibilities on how to live.

The telecalls are only like $10 a month and if you wanna check it out please visit

https://rf127.isrefer.com/go/teleclass/stinadevi/
Dr Joe was also interviewed in the movie “What the Bleep do we know!?”

One of the things that really got me started to study the field of Energy Medicine was a movie called “What the Bleep do we know!?”

As a summary you might say that it´s a movie based on interviews with resarchers like Ph.D. Fred Alan Wolf, Ph.D. Dean Radin, the late Dr. Masaru Emoto and Dr. Joe Dispenza and spiritual teachers like Ramtha talking about the quantum physics of the world and how we really think we know a lot of stuff… but do we really?

Some of it I found really mindboggling but then again that is what I like most about being alive. I also did get the extended version Down the Rabbit hole and if you keep your head cold you don´t get sucked into the wormhole of it all. You may feel a bit nuts. Or you may get really in awe of what else is possible.

After I saw this movie I was like YEAH!
The plot is about a girl who starts to wonder and question reality and starts to understand more and more about what we actually do perceive mixed with really great explanations that those of use sniffing on quantum physics may actually undertand. Althought as Richard Feynman said “If you think you understand quantum mechanics you don’t understand quantum mechanics” for me I find that just knowing there is something beyond what seems real is surely enough for my heart to sing.

I was lucky enought to get to listen to a talk with Lynne McTaggart at the QUANTUM ENERGY MEDICINE SEMINAR in Stockholm 2007 and also managed to have a few words with her and got her to sign my copy of her book “The Field”. Reading that book and listening to speakers like Dr James Oschman led me to study the field of Energy Medicine even further which I am sure I´ll come back to later.
I know this movie sure has some years to it now but even so I wanna spread the word. Remember that the medicinal use of Essential oils go back more than 2 000 years and the allopathic medical system that runs most of the western world has only a few hundred years to it. And considering that Energy medicine as it is being scientifically proven is still a kid. So this is so not outdated.
I highly recommend checking it out if you are into more

http://www.whatthebleep.com/bleep/