What an amazing question right! I bet you never thought of that one before 😉

We go around, mostly in our heads, thinking about who we are and who we are not. In relations to others I am a mother, I am married, I live in a yellow house, I drive a Volvo, I have a cat.. and so on and so forth. But those are just empty facts. Sure they do have meaning. But not meaning as in what am I really doing with my time.

I was just listening to a talk where this lady shared that at a retreat they got to swop identities with someone else. I e whatever that person did during one day – so should they.  They got to put their names in a hat and draw a name and then really get into the head of the other person. How did they start their day? What did they have for breakfast? Was the person very low energy or high energy?
This got me to really ponder from a different view about myself. See I love to think of myself as a heartfelt person. A warm person. A kind person. Although I am well aware of my flaws when I am hungry/tired/stressed out and none of these traits seems to be embodied by me. So what if I was asked: What do you do during a day? How do you act?
What would I respond?
I like to think I am following the path of the Buddha to become more in tune with who I aim to be.. the person I wish to embody.. the traits I wish to embody and inspire others to be. But this.. it really made me think. Both about that whichever I think I am and believe I am is not always true but also how that makes me rather blind to what is really going on.
What is my conditioning? What is my choice? What is my Karma in this?
What is the ACTUAL outcome of my deeds rather than my intentions in my head.

I decided a few days ago to start writing in a diary. Just to become more aware. Awareness is not always pleasant. For sure. But it does bring more choice.

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